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Mar. 22nd, 2008 | 02:02 pm

Five Statements on Friday and Saturday:

1) Is it super pathetic that
this guy is consistently
one of my favorite things on
my f'list? His posts never
change hehe

2) I accidentally witnessed a per-
formance artist eat most of a tub
of soap bubbles. I turned to the
woman next to me and said, "That
is... the most painful thing I've
seen in a week." And she looked at
me and said, "Well, I'M a friend of the
artist and I KNOW what the piece
MEANS and I hope maybe you'll
THINK about it and realize there's
MORE TO IT THAN YOUR LITTLE
REACTION."

3) Then someone interviewed me for
Japanese TV.  And I was like, "Yeah,
that was really gross."

4) I was going to go to the
Whitney or maybe the pillow
fight and, of course, the orgy.
But then my stomach said: NO
and I spent all day reading
Nietzsche, drinking mellow tea,
and lying in bed talking quietly
with a new friend from the
vicinity of his hip.

5) One of the things about being
25 is that you now know that
every new person you meet is
already somebody's "Evil Ex"--the
vicious heartbreaker who fucked
everything up. And you know
each person has someone out there
who truly hopes no one will ever
love that person again. And also,
you realize, that this means
nothing. So, with every shitty thing
I do, with everything I have to be
ashamed of, I find new reasons to
forgive the wrongs that have been
done me, and in forgiving, forgive
myself. And I discover that I am
learning to love more honestly
than ever before.

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jarsofwind

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from: [info]jarsofwind
date: Mar. 23rd, 2008 03:21 am (UTC)
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Number five brought me to the place before tears.

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Leafy

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from: [info]wonderleafy
date: Mar. 23rd, 2008 01:55 pm (UTC)
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What did it remind you of?

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jarsofwind

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from: [info]jarsofwind
date: Mar. 23rd, 2008 03:45 pm (UTC)
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That's the funny thing - I don't know. Maybe it will come to me later. Maybe it was just the concept of forgiving. I've been thinking a lot about forgiveness lately.

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O. Frabjous-Dey

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from: [info]rival
date: Mar. 23rd, 2008 03:24 am (UTC)
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What does your scammy friend post? Only one entry is public.

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Leafy

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from: [info]wonderleafy
date: Mar. 23rd, 2008 01:14 pm (UTC)
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Oh, I just linked to the one entry, is all. Click on his user name. It's just day after day of taking unsuspecting photos hehe

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O. Frabjous-Dey

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from: [info]rival
date: Mar. 23rd, 2008 06:57 pm (UTC)
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Oh, duh. I'm not very smart right now.

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O. Frabjous-Dey

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from: [info]rival
date: Mar. 23rd, 2008 06:58 pm (UTC)
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hehe

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StejCrueTekie

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from: [info]stejcruetekie
date: Mar. 23rd, 2008 03:58 am (UTC)
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I was thinking you would love the pillow fight, you should have gone! Course, I never got around to making sure you knew about it, but I had a good sense you would already know about it... Sadly, I'm at the parentals this weekend so I missed it :(

And I'm not anybody's Evil Ex. I'm not an Ex at all! Or have any Ex'es. Yes, I know this makes me weird and is actually much more cause for alarm.

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Leafy

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from: [info]wonderleafy
date: Mar. 23rd, 2008 01:53 pm (UTC)
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Given the option, would you WANT to have been somebody's Evil Ex? Or just Ex? Or are you actively pursuing this "not being anybody's Ex of any kind ever" thing?

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StejCrueTekie

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from: [info]stejcruetekie
date: Mar. 24th, 2008 04:25 am (UTC)
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Huh, that's an interesting twist..

Would I want to be someone's Evil Ex? Well, no! I can't imagine anyone would *want* to be (although I know full well there are plenty of people who don't give a rats ass about other people's feelings). Hurting someone else, especially on such an intimate level, is... not a good thing.

On the other hand, Western dating practices essentially guarantees that people will be hurt and there will be Evil Exes. It's the way things go, unless you're one of those odd couples that pair up in high school and never date anyone else.

While I joke that I'm not an Evil Ex, it's safe to say that I'm unhappy with that "honor," because of how it reflects on my non-existent romance life. So, the short answer is that no, I'm most definitely not actively pursuing the "not being anybody's Ex ever" thing!

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Number 5

from: [info]grendel1031
date: Mar. 23rd, 2008 04:04 am (UTC)
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I realize that this is absolutely egotistical, but

YOU ACHIEVING WISDOM.

I love you.

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Leafy

Re: Number 5

from: [info]wonderleafy
date: Mar. 23rd, 2008 01:54 pm (UTC)
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:)

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jellomarx

Evil Exes

from: [info]jellomarx
date: Mar. 23rd, 2008 04:33 am (UTC)
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Strangely enough someday you'll look back on those evil exes nostalgically. They'll make great stories for a book.

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So...

from: anonymous
date: Mar. 23rd, 2008 06:27 am (UTC)
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you said that my "New York Story" was a good one.

May I ask why you feel that way.


Jackson

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Leafy

Re: So...

from: [info]wonderleafy
date: Mar. 23rd, 2008 01:56 pm (UTC)
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Coherent beginning and middle, surprising climax, twist at the end. Emotional effect. Clear, un-affected writing.

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Re: So...

from: anonymous
date: Mar. 26th, 2008 03:14 am (UTC)
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What is the kindest thing you have ever done that you regret?

What is the cruelest thing you have ever done that you regret?


Jackson

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Leafy

Re: So...

from: [info]wonderleafy
date: Mar. 26th, 2008 03:15 am (UTC)
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Why do you ask?

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Re: So...

from: anonymous
date: Mar. 26th, 2008 03:21 am (UTC)
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Because I think your answers will be more interesting then the questions.


Jackson

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easter parade

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from: [info]early_traffic
date: Mar. 23rd, 2008 06:58 am (UTC)
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Number 2 and Number 5.

So applicable to me right this second.

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Leafy

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from: [info]wonderleafy
date: Mar. 23rd, 2008 01:09 pm (UTC)
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hahahah number 2? really?

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jellomarx

soap

from: [info]jellomarx
date: Mar. 23rd, 2008 10:14 am (UTC)
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The friend in # 2 may be more desperately in need of a life than any person that I have ever heard about!

I think the writer referred to in # 1, either has a bad sense of humor or is deranged. I lean towards the first choice.

Edited at 2008-03-23 01:52 pm (UTC)

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Leafy

Re: soap

from: [info]wonderleafy
date: Mar. 23rd, 2008 01:59 pm (UTC)
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The person in #2 was a tiny rotund Asian woman, standing with her buddies: Lanky Anorexic White Man and Rotund Asian Man Wearing Ironic Black Frames on Glasses. LAWM grinned uncomfortable, RAMWIBFG nodded slightly at my statement and then changed his expression to smug as soon as she glanced at him.

And that's how I learned everything I need to know about High Art in New York.

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jellomarx

Re: soap

from: [info]jellomarx
date: Mar. 23rd, 2008 02:04 pm (UTC)
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hahaha

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from: [info]tredecimal
date: Mar. 23rd, 2008 03:02 pm (UTC)
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Re. #5- Meme fodder- from the stuff you don't blog about. What have you done to become someone's Evil Ex? Be as objective as you can, don't just say what is the other person's bill of particulars, recount what YOU think you did that was actually shitty. I'll do mine if you want, but I'm sure I've mentioned it before already and it wasn't that shitty. (not my last ex)

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Leafy

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from: [info]wonderleafy
date: Mar. 23rd, 2008 09:05 pm (UTC)
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Interesting. Let's see.

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Leafy

I'll confine this to a comment out of respect for Dav

from: [info]wonderleafy
date: Mar. 23rd, 2008 09:39 pm (UTC)
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The only person I think I was really shitty to was Dav (who reads my journal, btw.)

And it was weird, because for the month before I left him, I sobbed every day, knowing I was going to hurt him, and knowing that he didn't deserve it. And then when I DID leave, he was so violently angry, I never cried again.

Why was it shitty? Probably because we both felt (at the time) that I owed him more. I left (in very small part) because I had a vague chance at someone else (who I'd never met). And I knew I was going to have to conceal that from Dav in order to have any chance at financially being able to leave (because I'd given him control of all my money and everything I owned). And when Dav found out about this other guy, he did try to refuse me what little was mine, because he was so hurt. I think he definitely felt that, considering how he'd supported me and let me live there with him for a year and a half, without paying rent or getting a job, and since he'd supported my immigrating and tried to encourage me to learn French and do the things I liked, that my leaving was pretty ungrateful. I think he felt he deserved another chance. And I didn't give it to him. Or, rather, I tried to give it to him, but that was when the violence of his hurt and anger went out of control, and at that I stopped feeling sorry. I probably should have felt sorry, but I stopped. Knowing that probably hurt him even more.

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Andrew

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from: [info]kornleaf
date: Mar. 23rd, 2008 07:24 pm (UTC)
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if an artist gives no frame of reference
then it is sometimes like trying to glean the meaning out of a korean poster when you speak spanish.

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Leafy

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from: [info]wonderleafy
date: Mar. 23rd, 2008 09:03 pm (UTC)
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i don't speak spanish! bigot.

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Andrew

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from: [info]kornleaf
date: Mar. 23rd, 2008 09:08 pm (UTC)
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i speak spanish
and hebrew
but if i tried to read korean
i wouldn't know where to start...

why the meanness?

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Leafy

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from: [info]wonderleafy
date: Mar. 23rd, 2008 09:09 pm (UTC)
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Haha, honestly, I'm just teasing you. I just thought it was interesting to say "when you don't speak spanish" as opposed to "when you don't speak english" which, it seemed to me, was the more obvious choice. Of course, that thought is vaguely ethnocentric, thus, I tease. I don't think you're a bigot.

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Andrew

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from: [info]kornleaf
date: Mar. 23rd, 2008 09:12 pm (UTC)
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hard to discern tone here
and i just ran 2.6 miles
and am tired.

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SPAM

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from: [info]coondog
date: Mar. 23rd, 2008 08:41 pm (UTC)
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#5..yea..so much so

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from: [info]recovered_dream
date: Mar. 24th, 2008 03:31 am (UTC)
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#2 has me DYING in laughter!!! Just... just...

OH.

MY.

GOD!

So help me THIS is why I'll never be a professional artist. The others would make me freaking INSANE!!!

But thanks for posting that... I sooo needed a laugh this weekend!

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Ethel the Frog

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from: [info]ethelthefrog
date: Mar. 25th, 2008 08:49 am (UTC)
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2. That's you told... ;)

5. Excellent.

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